I’ll Start Once I…

I’ve been saying for years that I think I’m supposed to write. And I’ve thought about writing so many times, yet each time it feels impossible to start.

Or maybe I do start, but then it feels too hard or even ridiculous to finish.

There are so many things holding me back: time constraints, lack of focus, lack of drive, putting other things first, questioning if I can do it, doubting that anyone will care while simultaneously worrying about what they’ll think of me if I do.

The intention is there, but the follow-through is not. There is always something standing in the way.

I’ll start once I have the time.

I’ll start once I finish these other tasks.

I’ll start once I have things more organized.

I’ll start once I have a better routine.

I’ll start once I feel like less of a mess.

I’ll start once I feel inspired.

I’ll start once I…

Once I…

I…

But only one really matters: I’ll start once I am called.

Because the truth is it isn’t about me; it’s about Him. I don’t need to feel like things are right before I start, I need to trust Him to make things right once I start.

So here’s to trusting you, God.

I’ll start once I now.